Blech

Yes, my SIL is still in the hospital. I don't know how things are looking. The doctors thought that the cancer has not spread, but now it looks as though it has spread to her lymph nodes. She will have to undergo therapy. Sucks doesn't it? To top it off, right now she has some sort of infection that they have to treat. They are giving her antibiotics. I hope that her body can recover from that.
I talked to her last night and she sounded so weak. I could barely understand her. Usually I have no problems hearing her even when she is talking to Fred on the phone and I'm across the room.
I just can't help but feel guilty. I often joke that it's the Catholic in me. I feel guilty for feeling bad when it's not about me. I'm not the one suffering. I feel guilty because I can have children. I feel guilty when I have petty things to worry about, like getting stamps to send out stupid Valentine's Day cards. Yes I'm sending out Vday cards a little late.

Sad news

We just found out that my SIL was diagnosed with Statge II uterine cancer. For now the only thing we do is just wait and see. It sucks. She has been bleeding since June. It sucks that she has been suffering for so long. I have been clueless to all that has been happening to her and I feel awful. Fred's family is usually open too. I am sure everyone knew about it but us. I hope she doesn't think we didn't care. I am sure she thought we knew because she told her mom.

She will get a hysterectomy, her cervix and ovaries removed. I don't know what to think. I know that there was one point in her life when she wanted children. She really never settled down with anyone. I feel guilty for being so healthy and having one child, another one on the way. I never know what to say either. I know that she is scared. I know that she believes in God so at least she has her faith.